Sunday, June 16, 2013

Against the Flow

Do you ever find yourself swimming against the stream?
Going against the flow???
And you know, just know...that it's the right thing to do!
For me, it's my spirituality.
I can remember my sister wanting to know why? I just couldn't be Catholic.
My response, "Let me show you my astrology chart...it's obvious."
Also, I have a need to have lots of "alone" time. 
I'm more alone when I'm with people...like at a party or get together.

When do  you feel that you're not going with the flow...?
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26 comments:

One Fly said...

When do you feel that you're not going with the flow...?

A lot and that makes it tough sometimes. It's like I have little in common with most people. Many Americans are wannabe's.

I like your picture a bunch.

Plowing Through Life (Martha) said...

Yes, I find myself often swimming against the stream. I'm not one to follow crowds simply because everyone is doing it. It has to make sense to me. And like you, I spend quite a bit of time on my own. As an introvert, I absolutely need that!

Teresa Evangeline/Bayou Summer said...

Love your photo! Learning to go with the flow is a daily practice, practice being the key word... :)

ellen abbott said...

well, that's been my whole life really. couldn't submit to the submissive role expected of women growing up. wouldn't let the boys win at games. and it just went on from there. I also walked away from christianity in my late teens/early 20s. I'm a bit of hermit myself.

Debra She Who Seeks said...

I must be a salmon cuz I've been swimming upstream my entire friggin' life, LOL!

Gypsy Boho said...

I've been swimming against the stream, going against the flow - or as Bob Seger would say, "Running against the wind" all my life.

I can relate.

Manzanita said...

So what about your chart that says difference? Is it your Jupiter? I feel like I'm a loner too. I can't do ANY dogma. I love studying religious history but the more I learn, I can't take any of it personally. Hope you are in the midst of an brilliant weekend.

turquoisemoon said...

Fly, Thank you. I took that pic last year in Colorado. It was tough when I was expected to conform, but once I studied astrology, I realized that it's "just me" and to accept it.

Martha, Sheesh!!! logic??? Yes, yes, yes...logic. It has to make sense and to me, there can be no contradictions. (learned about that from Atlas Shrugged a long time ago)

Teresa, Those are very wise words, especially to the younger ones who are just wanting to be different.

Ellen, As an artist, I kind of figured that you were probably somewhat of a loner too. I went on my spiritual search at that same age... and, have always been very competitive(tomboy)...are we twins???

Debra, Astrology explained so many things to me. I became comfortable with my "swim" when I learned that this is just the way I am. It would have been nice if I had learned to accept "me" as a child. Churches always preached loving others, then there were the contradictions, then there was "sinning". Huh??? How could I like myself when I was told what a sinner I was??? Just strange...

Gypsy, Oooh that song fits you to a tee... I'll bet your astrology chart would say that you're doing just what you're supposed to be doing...Somewhere inside of you, you know you're doing it right!!

My first recollection that I was "different" was in first grade. All the girls normally wore their best dresses and the boys, their finest, for the last day of school..3 hours. I demanded to wear jeans & cowboy boots..brown and yellow ones. The girls laughed at me and I didn't care!!! but I remembered and I knew from that minute, I was different. I'm also intense about things. Some can just "look" and/or accept...I gotta study/taste/smell to make sure I accept. I have sun/moon in the 8th house of intensity...

turquoisemoon said...

Manzanita, In my case, it's the 8th house sun/moon conjunction. It's also repeated about 3 more times. Getting ready to go out and eat for our anniversary dinner... Wine!!! luv wine with dinner!!!

turquoisemoon said...

OOh Manzanita...Sun/Moon in Sag in the 8th + a few more Sag stuff...

FOLKWAYS NOTEBOOK said...

Great post. I need lots of alone time to be creative. I highly recommend this New York Times article,

http://www.nytimes.com/2012/01/15/opinion/sunday/the-rise-of-the-new-groupthink.html?pagewanted=1

and this book "SOLITUDE, A Return to the Self" by Anthony Storr, 1988.

~ ~ barbara

turquoisemoon said...

Barbara, Thank you for the article. I will certainly check it out. I have a girlfriend that wants to go out with me when I do photography. I tried one time and vowed "never again".

turquoisemoon said...

Barbara...I loved that article. These are things (not all the info about Jobs)I've wondered about, but being odd person out..never actually said them. I feel so sorry for all those little introvert children being force into a group environment...and trying to learn.

Arkansas Patti said...

I am pretty much a "when in Rome" type. I may paddle a different boat at times and go off course from the expected, but I usually end up following the main stream. I'm an adapter.

turquoisemoon said...

Patti, some are!!! and good! That's just who you are. I think the thing is to accept who you are and feel comfortable...

Teri said...

I remember sitting at parties and thinking "I don't belong here, I don't fit in here". That is one of the reasons that I took off in an RV. I am meeting a lot of people on the road, but it is different. Maybe because no one knows my whole story and I am not expected to act a certain way.

turquoisemoon said...

Teri, You are certainly marching to a drum beating a different sound...and doesn't feel just right for you??? I wish we were all taught acceptance, especially for ourselves, and knew that it is all right...

Ashling said...

LOL! "Let me show you my astrology chart" was probably not the expected response. Did it clarify things for her? As for 'not going with the flow', being a Goddess-worshipping lesbian puts me against the flow much of the time I suppose,but even the calmest waters have their own little eddies and ripples, so maybe there's less flow than we think!

turquoisemoon said...

Ashling, No it did not clarify anything...hahaha! I can't imagine me being anything other than who/what I am. Too bad they don't offer kids classes on respecting themselves and honoring who they are...their talents, their skills. By the time they in into their 20's, I feel that most churches and schools have made the person feel isolated and lost and unworthy...so sad.

Lisa said...

I rejected 'the flow' a very long time ago.
I also need alot of alone time.
It is not time wasted, more time reflected upon, used wisely.
The flow.
Blind following the blind in some cases.
Everyone should be free to listen to their own heart in respects to religion and spirituality.
A lovely post. xx

turquoisemoon said...

Lisa...ooh yes! Linda (above) listed a site about "alone" which is very good. We are free to listen, but sometimes, we are taught that it's almost sinlike...not a word, but you know what I mean.

gregory urbano said...

just like a tide that turns!

Linda Myers said...

I appear to be going against the flow now that I'm a senior. I insist on traveling and learning.

turquoisemoon said...

Gregory, Yes!!! exactly...

Linda...don't cha just love being a senior???

Dee said...

Dear Turquoisemoon, when I retired I seemed to go against the flow because everyone wanted me to simply relax and laze and cease to plan my days. But I wanted to write and that demands some discipline. I lost that discipline for nearly three years because of health issues but now I'm "back in the saddle again!" and I'm writing and that brings so much joy. Peace.

turquoisemoon said...

Dee, I understand completely, in fact I've had kind of a hard time with retirement. I'm much happier with a discipline. It feels right, doesn't it.